Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Time out for mommy

Go figure that i'm finally getting around to writing up this post while i've locked myself away in my room for a mommy time out.  it's one of those moments where i've reached my limit of being sassed to, ignored relentlessly, or having things thrown at me in jest/anger (all of the above includes our little E).  it's funny cause i know people look at this blog because of the comments, but i never really think that anyone is reading/looking at my occasional rants.  Today i went to emma's school with jude and eli after naps.  We had a good time hanging out with emma's class for the last hour of school, but when it came time to leave my kids just melted into whining, crying messes.  Thankfully we were the very last to leave school so i didn't have to endure the stares of the women with the 3 loud crazy children.  We were also taking home one of emma's friends from school and she was just walking along as content and happy as can be.  Once we got into the car i looked back at B (emma's friend) and said, "Gee B, what's wrong with the Newbold's today? We're a mess!" at that point Emma lost it even more and dramatically wailed, "I'm sooooo sorry for whining, i'm sooooo sorry for being such a terrible chiiiiild!"  Well that just sent a knife through my heart.  I was horrified that such a horrible idea would even enter into her mind. I quietly and gently told Emma to look at me and reassured her that i was very proud of her and grateful that she was mine.
  It's funny how terrifying parenting can be.  You are sooo scared to get everything right, to not screw up your kids, to not pass down your own insecurities to these sweet innocent spirits.  But at least we try, right?  Ugh it's so hard to be a parent and be so, human!
  So, i guess to calm myself down i'll write a few things about those little monkey's who i adore and who have made me a better person.
  Emma, Emma, Emma.  You were meant to be a first born.  Large and in charge.  It's crazy when i stop to look at you and really see you and realize how you are not a baby anymore.  I'm pretty sure if i blink the next thing i know you'll be a young woman.   You try so hard to do what's right and are so hard on yourself when you've made a mistake.  You are an amazing artist and have a brilliant mind.  You are fearless in so many aspects and i admire you for your incredible strength.  (just yesterday after dance class, her teacher came up to me saying emma had some concerns about the costume for the recital.  The teacher said it had something to do with wearing a shirt with it.  I chuckled and explained that emma was worried about wearing the costume because it was spaghetti strap and how we've taught her what it means to dress modestly.  She was concerned that she would be allowed to wear a shirt under or over the costume to make it modest.  The teacher happens to be of our faith and so i didn't have to really explain too much to her to have her understand, but i was so proud of emma for standing up for something she believes like that.  It was a no brainer for her.) 
  Jude.  You are my sweet, tender hearted, mischievous little man.  You have energy to no end and always are in the mood to laugh and make others laugh.  Sometimes you go too far, but you are learning and trying.  you want so badly to be a big boy and play with the big kids.  You want to be independent and do everything on your own and i'm often surprised with how much you can do all on your own.  You are my cuddle bug and can easily melt my heart with the drop of a tear.  You are a fearless acrobat, which makes me anxious to see what you do the older you get.
  Eli.  You are our "Growly Bear."  You may be little but you are one tough tot that i don't want to mess with.  You have attitude and an opinion and you don't let your size slow you down.  You too have an inner strength that astounds me like your sister.  You also love to make people laugh and love messing around with jude to do just that.  
  For all the complaining i do about my kids, i wouldn't trade them for anything.  I can't even picture myself doing anything other than being a full time stay-with-the-kids mom.  They've taught me strength, confidence, love, love, love and how to forgive and forget.  What blessings they are and my cup runneth over. 
  Well that was therapeutic. 

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

a new camera

 So i've been wanting to get a new camera for quite a while now (even though i lack posting pics on my blog, i do take lots of pics at home).  When Brad saw me put some on my christmas list and heard me plead my cause, he made me promise him that if we got one, i would have to use it a lot and post more pics on our blog.  So here i am trying to prove myself worthy of a new camera.  I finally managed to upload pics.  Not sure why it wasn't letting me before, but i'm glad i'm able to, and with much greater ease : )

Eli invading Nate and Camille's cooler
Here's one from a while back.  We were making carmel apples with some family and friends, and we turn our backs on jude and a bowl of sprinkles for 2 seconds and this is what ensued.  Jude gorging himself on fistfuls of rainbow sprinkles.

Camille the child magnet ; )

Emma's first costume (cinderella)
Eli's first costume

Emma's third costume (She Hulk), the night before we went to a friends Halloween party where Jude was the Hulk and Emma had dressed up as a vampire, so she decided at the ward halloween party this is what she would be.  It's fitting ; )

This photo is a favorite of Brad's.  Eli decided to ditch the party and go wreak havoc in a classroom with Brad.  Plus Jude needed a place to rest since he had eaten too many sweets and earned himself a tummy ache. Surprise?

Jude's second costume (spiderman) you can see his nails are still painted green from his hulk costume, i'll post pics of that as soon as i get them from my friend.

Eli has learned fast that this is a world of survival of the fittest.  He may be small, but he can easily take down his siblings if he times it right. Here he's trying is darndest to get the lollipop from emma.

Eli's second costume (kangaroo) Emma wore this for her first Halloween, you can see how much they look alike by clicking here. Some people tell me my kids are clones.  What do you think?

I love getting into the Holidays with the kids.  So i was a vampire pirate on Halloween night and a Luchadora at the ward Halloween party.  Brad threw on nerd glasses and was Moby for our friends halloween party and then let me dye him green so he could go to the ward party as lizard man (spiderman's nemesis)  : )

Making cookies with friends and anxiously awaiting the results : )

First snow day, i LOVE the snow.  Eli didn't care for it and was more like randy from a christmas story stuck laying in the snow.

Eli looking like a little girl with pig tails

Eli proud of his accomplishment of fitting in this basket

Eli not so happy about his accomplishment 2 seconds later ;)

Playing nerds with daddy

Jude and i hanging out today : ) He's my sweet little cuddle bug...when he wants to be...